I Feel Like Moses

Starting a podcast and launching a website, while having no idea what I'm doing, has me feeling unequipped. The doubts, the fear, the perfectionism, the lies that I've believed my entire life are in full force.

But the story of Moses keeps coming back to me. When God called him to lead the Israelites from Egypt and Moses told God he wasn't equipped. Exodus 4:10 says "But Moses pleaded with the LORD, 'O Lord, I’m not very good with words. I never have been, and I’m not now, even though you have spoken to me. I get tongue-tied, and my words get tangled.'" And I get it. Because that's what I've been saying to God, too.

Who am I to be starting a podcast and posting on videos YouTube? I am no one. I didn't even finish my Masters in Professional Counseling, no one will take me seriously. But then God says something similar to me as he did to Moses thousands of years ago, "Then the LORD asked Moses, 'Who makes a person’s mouth? Who decides whether people speak or do not speak, hear or do not hear, see or do not see? Is it not I, the LORD?'" And that stops those negative thoughts really quickly.

Because who am I to doubt God and the position He's placed me in? Who am I to limit God's ability to use me and speak through me and place me in front of the people who need to know Him, but will only know Him because of my voice, my approach, and my message?

God's been working so much on me since I was laid off from my job on September 1st, 2023 and I know there's so much more He will be teaching me on this journey.

It's vulnerable, it's scary, but it doesn't feel quite as scary as what Jesus went through for me. So I think I can handle this because of the power of God that lives in me.

Get ready for the launch however messy and awkward and clunky it is, because I'm believing God is going to use it somehow for someone sometime. Yes and amen.